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When You're Not Yourself by LALASOSU2 When You're Not Yourself by LALASOSU2
This is for all of you, and especially dedicated to my dear friends, you know who you are. Don't ever think I don't love you for you. ♥ And don't ever think about trying to leave me again. [[LOLOL ISTHATATHREATLALA? Yes. Yes it is. XD]]
I've been asked why I haven't made this a post for people to favorite, rather than just have it in my journal. So, I'm posting it as an art for you to have and look back on when you're not yourself.
I didn't know how many of you would make the time to read, I'm thankful for you all to stop by and take my "tough love" into consideration. Thank you once again everyone!

-No need to point out any mistakes, that isn't the point of this.

-My heart goes out to Japan as well.
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AnimeNightFall3 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2012  Student Artist
i had this problem in Middle School. i was depressed thinking no one cares about me. That people will laugh when i Die. i shouldn't go on i should leave forever. :'(
at the end of grade 7 i thought. Why am i thinking this, life is a gift you shouldn't throw it away, i do have people who care about me, if i go i would hurt everybody else. i'm never doing this again :D
and i never had :)
i never had attempted to commit suicide i just had the thought.
i have never been depressed since :D
TheThreeRavens Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm not admitting to any kind of depression or trying to commit suicide a bunch of times but...

This was helpful!

I'm a total weirdo stranger but, this helped me more than stupid pep talks from some idiot who pretends to care.

So thanks! :D
KoruSempai Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2011  Student Artist is... wow... I cant even put a finger on it, I have been subdued to depression in my life and still struggling through it, I have tried to commit suicide when everyone hated me in middle school. I wish I would have read this sooner, It surely would have helped me allot. But now it'll help me even more for the rough times ahead. Thank you Lalasosu.
LALASOSU2 Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I really hope you don't try it again though. I'm glad you're alive and living for the better!
KoruSempai Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2011  Student Artist
I won't thanks to you, I really appreciate it, Lala. :3
kaizerfloyd Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2011
Thank you. I needed to read this.
randomcatgirl Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i agree full heartedly with that. i when through what you had said and i get like sometimes still but i get through them with the help of my friends. for example the other day i had a dead line to meet for two different thing on the same day. i was so worked up about it i wanted to just end it but my frends sat down with told me not to worry and also at that time in my head i thought my friends were getting board of me being around them. after having the talk with my friend i feel much better like a huge wieght lifted of me so was free of the negatives and i could take in the postives.
for the record i don't think it tough love at all your right.
on the bright side i've given donations to Japan and had my picture taken with some japanese ladies. i spoke in japanese to them it was fun.
takara-jewels Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2011
I just... stumbled across this, and I just wanted you to know it really helped me.

Thank you.
De-Chi-Tai Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2011  Student General Artist
Thank you.

I have to thank you for this.

I don't want to go into a tl;dr, but my boyfriend suffers from depression and constantly thinks about suicide. I feel like several time it's my fault for not being supportive enough, but when I found this, my hopes were lifted. I know now that when he starts feeling down again, I'll show him this.

So once again, thank you for giving me, and hopefully my boyfriend, the strength to continue on.
MyLolitaComplex Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2011
I'm sat here, with tears dripping down my face. Literally.
This has just left me absolutely speechless, so I apologize for any gibberish I type. xD
First, I just want to say thank you. To all of you.
Because not so long ago, I thought I was nothing, not even worth the air I breathed. I'd recently broken up from a very intense relationship, lost an insane amount of weight, moved halfway across the country, yadda yadda.
tl;dr, I was in a bad place.
And I don't mean to freak any of you out, but you really are my idols. I found PS on YouTube, and every single video made me smile. Which was a feat back then.
Since then, we've actually started our own cosplay group, something I would have never had the confidence for if it wasn't for all of you.
So thank you, for sharing your happiness with all of us. It really does make a difference.
Mushy babble over. :D
sheepprincessu Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
This is great, I'll have to see if it works when I get depressed. I have severe depression, and I need someone to pick me up when I fall. I normally don't have anyone, so this will (hopefully) work in place of a human :thanks:
LALASOSU2 Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awh! If you need anyone, feel free to talk with me!~
sheepprincessu Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks :meow: It hasn't happened for a while, so I'm hoping it's completely gone (probably just jinxed it =.= )
But still, the fact that a random person who I never met would want to help me will probably help me a lot. :meow:
(I use :meow: a lot, don't I? Hehe... that's not random at all o.e) Well long response is long, so I'll stop there =)
sasukegurl636 Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
*hugs you and starts to cry* FINALLY! Someone who has the same thoughts as me when I talk with all my depressed friends and people who I see crying on the street. Its not weird to just give them a smile or ask if they want a hug. Right?
Miwa2oo7 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2011
You're completely right. I totaly agree.
And I think of Japan too.
GaaraOtakuLover Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2011
I made a nice comment to someone who was sad they block me : ( Japan needs alot of help I want to help them.
TheBeautifulWorld Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2011  Student Filmographer
IjustDONTWaNnaBe Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2011
words of truth
Otaku4Eternity Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2011
That was absolutely beautiful, and almost brought me to tears.
Lycan-wolf96 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Here's a link to Japanese bands and artists that are okay. Kanon Wakeshima's a missing person though.
Mayakopii Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Student
i cried on this ;w;
Kyo-xo-kitsune Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
T^T oh lala this is amazing! I once had all those thoughts, cause most of the school had shunned me but once I got into High school ever thing turned around for the better. I just wished one of my friends had read this if they did she may still be here today. Thank you for caring enough to make this.
Typical-Angst Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
-Nods- Japan needs every good wish out there..
CalypsoKid95 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Student Photographer
I have kept your Journal of this post in my inbox until now, I am so happy you did this <3 Thank you so much. ;w;

My older sister lives in Japan (since her husband is in the military) and they lived right on the beach. O_O We got a call at around 3 in the morning from them saying how they were doing, and they were evacuated from their home, and are staying with some friends. They have to wait until they get an 'okay' to get back into their house. Stilling waiting for more updates from them. >.<

UnforutunateFortune Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
That's aazing and very heartfelt and as one who hardly ever think of such things, it lifted me nevertheless.
Thank you for being the kinda friend that that one person might need, try to do that too.
Please don't think I'm being sarcastic by saying this, but you might have saved a few lives today :)
Kimu-Kumo Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Was it you who posted something about This kinda reminds me of that site. :)
Thank you for posting this. I have a suicidal friend who I love dearly, but I never know the right things to say to her. :heart: I'm sure this helps a lot of people.
lennyboola Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
i love this soo much
SaiyukiSucker Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I love this post so much, this shows how much you care for human life. I hope people take this advice when thinking of suicide.

-also praying for Japan
Kitty-Wolf Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
This is beautiful, Lalasosu. Really.
Madelyn291 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
:icondeathstareplz: That..... WAS THE FREAKING DEEPEST THING I HAVE EVER READ! It was amazazing! (I added an extra za ^^) :iconiloveyouplz:
SebbyFanGirl13 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
Awww! :') Lala, you're amazing! Haha, true, I've never felt that. But I've been like you, the Kajo.^^ But seeing this did cheer me up. I'm always the one who cheers everyone up and gives everyone else hugs, but when are thet going to see that even I need hugs and a good venting talk too; you know? :')) Thank you!
Eidoriana12 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011   Artist
Wow very true. I really needed to hear that. I've been down this whole week so reading this cheered me up!~ Thank you<3
AsiaMichealis Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
:'D Thank you Lala <3
I appriciate everything you said :')
Even though I dont want to die or anything. I went thru a moment where I did and if I'd seen this at that moment I would have been really glad <3
I love you!!! :3
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SilverC3 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
-Sniffle- I think I'm going to print this out.. Maybe hang it on my door or something.. :thanks:
OhPizzaPizzaYum Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
Huggeth to the EXTREME
*saves Japan*.
Man i feel so bad for them....
we gotta do something....this worlds gotta work together.
TzaraMethuselate Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
I....I'm inspired...*Sob* That was really great.
HidanVI Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
This was a really good thing for me to read at this time of my life.
I have been going through a lot of trouble with friendship/hardship and tend to bring myself down easily and reading this passage has given me reason to smile.
It was kind of like one of those moments when you feel like giving up on this or that and you read or see something that really makes you think and inspires you.
I don't like drama and tend to bottle up feelings and that has become quite the problem for me.
Anyway, I don't want to talk about myself, haha.

Thanks for writing this, it made my day ^-^

Have a good one,
~HidanVI : )
Beautiful. I'm sure this will touch a lot of people. It has defiantly touched me.

I agree with you 100%.

Hearts out to japan as well.
deadlysupia Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:heart: lovely~ i'll always keep this~
EnmaAi1 Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
wow i got to say i am like speechless what to say wow but i love what you wrote
Kitsune-Naruto-Kun Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Wise words daddy, wise words <33
BatPhace Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I loved it when you posted it on your journal, and I love it now :) WAFF abound!! Positive thinkers UNITE!! :hug:
IndecisiveWombat Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This made me tear up so bad, man. Guh.
Way back when in grade 7 there was this girl who was about as close to me as anyone had ever
been ever in my life ever ever. Two years later I found out our/her group of friends were pulling
the worst rumours on me, setting me up for failure, and dong ever possible god-sickly thing a
girl can do to another girl without physically harming me. That was going on for two years and I
was completely oblivious. I say this because I still dread on that and wonder if everyone is playing
that same shiz on me. Suicide thoughts, and self abuse tendencies are very common with me.
That was way longer than I had hoped. ANYWAY. Seeing this both made me see a light at the end
of the tunnel-- that I really should be out of by now. |D;;;;;; But since I'm such a wonderfully
pessimistic ass I teared 'cause "Nope not me. Nope. Sure I'd hurt people but I'd be done."
Personally there's really one main person that has kept me from dieing. OKAY I'LL STOP NOW. Or
this will go on for ever and ever. :|

LOVE YOU THO, BRO. :iconbrohugplz:
Panthakitty Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
A few years ago, I was on the brink of suicide. It's people like you that stopped me, thank you.

If it wasn't for complete strangers who cared, I wouldn't be alive today.
SakuraPhantomness Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Do you write fanfics?
I think you would be able to) You have amazing ideas, that you can use in drabbles =) I tell you that as a writer :D
lostxartist Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
What you did was so nice
You really should give more pep talks
The vids you guys make always help me through the hard times
ellyemma Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011
I loved that journal so much it would be considered a crime (by me at least)if I didn't fave this !
It still makes my eyes water that a stranger can care so much about others.
I still think that you are an amazing person with a wonderful vision and a great heart !

and of course my heart goes out to all the victims in Japan !
Yuuki-Ravna Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Student General Artist
like i said before


and japan.. my god. i've been watching (idiotically cuz now i feel like crying from the disastor. >< ) news clips and making sure people i know there are safe and sound. I'm also looking at turning a band gig i have coming up in a week into a fundraising gig for Japan. Hopefully the boys will agree. (we're an Otaku band so i dont think it should be TOO hard to convince them. >> )
catcrissy Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
That was beautiful!!!
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