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Both digital and painting, they're open! Paintings take a lot longer to do, but they're still open. Digital art is totally open though, I welcome it! If you have something specific in mind that you're not sure how much it will cost, just throw a description of what you want at me & I'll tell you how much. ♥

I said it in the video down below, but to sum it up: Some people are saying that they plan to meet with me at a convention that I don't even attend/live near. I only attend A-kon and Anime Fest in Texas. These "Lalasosus" that you are going to "meet" at some random convention are not me, I'm sorry! D: I don't really have any way to stop these people, so please don't let yourself get fooled by them. I don't want to hear more heart-breaking stories about people who thought that they met/talked with me for a long time only to find out that it wasn't really me. T_T I hate that they are doing this to you all. I don't understand why they do it. It's been happening on the internet too, so just djfkghfdjkghfh. Be careful. Send me a note on HERE if you want to make sure you're actually talking to me on another website. TDT

:la:P.S. - MAIL TIME!:la:
I also mentioned this in the video below, but basically we have some mail that we have not posted a video opening yet because we are kind of waiting to open it all in one big mail time special thanggg.

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This video covers PhantomhiveService's updates and Let Them Hang updates!

Now for something off of the topic of updates, and more on just.. talking to ya.
I am graduating from my University sometime this fall and with a lot of things on my mind, I have honestly been feeling really upset with myself for a long, long time now. Years. I don't have enough confidence to just jump into the industry and do what I have been working hard to become. I almost feel like after taking these classes and "trying to perfect" making films, I lost my creative side along the way and only gained more technical thoughts in its place. It's like I went from someone who had so many ideas & was so eager to share them with the world, to someone who thinks of a small idea and then tells themselves, "No, that's a stupid idea. No one would like that. I hate it. This and that would happen. Nothing good would come of it. Everyone will see only flaws in it."

Have any of you gone through this? Maybe it's because there are other things on my mind along with my personal life that I've become so much more negative towards my work now. I just hate that I can't at least enjoy it a little, or enough to bother sharing my work with you guys. To be super honest, it is part of the reason as to why I have not been posting many videos. (aside from everyone being busy) I edit something, then I hate it and don't post it. Or I'll come up with skit or cmv ideas, write out a big script, then once it's near time to film, I drop it thinking that it's useless to waste time on something like that. That's basically how it goes.

:iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3::iconrainbowwaveplz1::la:Journal Feature!:la::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3::iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3:

:iconlilotea-chan:! This young lady... I have been wanting to give her a journal feature ever since meeting her at A-kon! Let me tell you, she is AMAZING at art, cosplay, & is an absolute SWEETHEART! AAHH!
LTH - Nathanael and Constantine (WIP) by lilotea-chanNo.6 - At the end of all things by lilotea-chan
Her art is absolutely gorgeous. She has drawn P.S. a lot & even drew Let Them Hang so perfectly! T_T ♥ But I don't want to focus on that, I want to share how great her art is on anything she does!
Ingenuity by lilotea-chanBlue Skies by lilotea-chan
She puts a lot of love and effort into her work, as you can see. She deserves a lot more love on her cosplays and art! Go check her out!~ ♥
No.6 - We'll meet again. by lilotea-chan
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BobtailedDumpling Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013
For lack of motivation: I felt that way with my cooking as well. I've been focusing on technique and all the do's and don't's that I lost the joy of cooking I once had.

My solution: I went backwards. I spent time with my grandmother (Who got me interested in the first place) watching cooking shows, through old books, making dinner, etc. I even went back to the days when I was small and made pudding pies just like I used too. I made little things like cookies and pancakes and shaped them into hilarious shapes (From a gif I found I could make inappropriate shaped pancakes) with my friends. I tried to find the fun and "me" again. I'm still not ready for the industry, and due to adult problems I am forced to take a year off school and the like. But on the bright side I am now slowly balancing Creativity and Perfection into my own style. I'm brainstorming ideas and writing them down. Even if I hate them later and/or never try them, I still have them there to build off of. I show the idea to several trusted individuals (one part 'stranger who will be honest" to one part close friends/family) for feedback before I try to develop it further (in my case, have those people try one dish several times, each with a difference within).

Just food for thought. In the industries where creativity work hand in hand with technique and specifics (entertainment, culinary, digital design, etc.) it is very easy to loose creativity in favor for the rest. That's why people say it is "unstable".

In worst case scenarios: Waiters and Tech Crew are always a few heads short!
LeonardNimoyLover Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know what you mean Lala, I want to be a published author, but my passion kind of died when I went to College. I dropped out because it was squashing my creativity. I know it sounds awful, cause I just didn't go after a year, but I'm happier. Honestly. I'm proud that you're graduating, but don't shy away from the industry. Your works, whether it be art, painting, filming, editing etc, you're brilliant. Maybe take some time to re-find yourself. Find what made you passionate, go all out for those ideas even if you think people will think they're stupid. Honestly, I think that about all of my art, writing, and film editing. But, some people still point out that they like it. And some is better than non right? Just keep moving forward. You have hundreds, even thousands of people supporting you already. No matter what you do, we'll be there behind you the whole way. :) Keep your chin up Lala. 
mermaid1213 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Student General Artist
First of all watching you paint was amazing. Also I liked your up potato video and I did the tongue thing with yoooou XD YOU R NOT ALOOOONE!!
IriaSeraph Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Professional General Artist
Man, I felt the same way.  Don't be afraid to get into professional work, to talk and apply and ask and meet.  But do your own projects too, and get them out there.  You gotta make a living, but you are a particularly creative individual and I would hate to see that lost in the press of making a living.  I love your stuff.
Also, if you're ever in central Florida, poke me, con-wise or professionally.  :3
lilotea-chan Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No, but seriously, THANK YOU. Thank you so so much, hun. My art absolutely isn’t deserving of all that praise and attention. Really. Lately I’ve been absolutely not happy with how my art is turning out (not to mention I hardly ever find the time to even draw anymore), but this was a much needed kick in the butt to get back on track and start improving again. Thank you <3 :tighthug:

Ughh, I still can’t believe I actually got to meet you at Akon. That fact was one of the reasons that made it one of the happiest times in my life T^T Thank you so so much for enduring my weirdness and shyness and horrible english XD I really really really hope I’ll be able to meet you all again sometime <3

And noooow- I think you absolutely need some cheering up D< Because I can’t simply watch while people are upset and you sound as though you really need a hug (or maybe a banana; bananas are good too. So go eat a banana and then read this. Warning, wall of text ahead.)
First of all: Don’t ever try to be perfect. Nooononononono. Don’t. Ever. Bad Lala. If it’s pushing yourself to improve from the last try, okay. Go ahead. But if it’s keeping you from enjoying yourself and showing others your work or making you forsake an idea before it has even really formed just for the simple reason that it has the potential to end up turning out a tad bit less than perfect, throw your perfectionism in the garbage. It’s not needed. Instead, just try to do your best, that is all anyone can ever ask of you. Try and realize where you can actually realistically improve something, where you can challenge yourself to do a bit better because you want to test your limits and it’s fun to see how much improvement is possible, but also remember that sometimes it’s okay to leave something be and no one apart from yourself might even realize that that certain part of your work is not as ‘perfect’ as it could be.
I’ve wasted most of my childhood trying to be ‘perfect’ because my parents never taught me that it’s okay to make mistakes. I wish I’d started earlier not caring about people’s opinions and just doing whatever the hell I want to. If I had, I might be on a completely different level art- and cosplay-wise by now. It’s hard to break out of old patterns and I’m still feeling horribly insecure about my art and especially my cosplays, but I think studying Psychology has helped me a lot in realizing that behind every human being that looks at my work and says ‘ew’, there’s a mind functioning the same way as mine, that’s being influenced by its environment, its personal history, experiences, genes etc. and there’s a thousand reason why the person might not like my art other than the fact that it really is ‘bad’ (not to mention that beauty is in the eye of the beholder ;)). So don’t think about other people’s opinions, do what you want to do for yourself. My worst fear is actually looking back at my life when I am gray and old and realizing all the chances I missed out on because I was too scared it could’ve turned out not the way I wanted it to. I believe we are only given this one life (though of course other people might think differently) and I’ll be damned if I waste it. So next time you have an idea for a video, think about whether or not you might regret later not having acted on it. Even if it doesn’t turn out quite the way you wanted it to, you’ll still have learned something from it :3
I kinda think this is turning into a novel here. Feel free to stop reading anytime you want and do something useful instead, like eating a banana. No wait, you already did that, didn’t you? If you’re out of bananas, go to the next supermarket and buy some. Bananas are healthy, not to mention really awesome. Do comments have a word limit? I’m trying to squish 18 years worth of life wisdom into a tiny comment here. Bear with me. xD
It’s kinda funny, cause it feels to me like we are on two completely different ends of the same thing. I’ve never filmed much more than vlogs or the occasional silly video of my dog, but lately I’ve been getting really interested in cinematography and doing a CMV is at the top of my to-do-list after my exams are over and I’ve got some time again. What is it that made you fall in love with cinematography to begin with? For me, it’s the way you can make music/sounds and visual stuff work together to create so many different feelings in the audience, how there’s pretty much endless possibilities to let out your creativity. Sometimes, when I listen to a song I like, I just close my eyes and imagine what pictures might go well with the rhythm, which are the recurring elements of the music, is there a crescendo where you can build up tension in the story line, what mood fits best, is there a kind of ‘BAMPH’ moment that adds some action or a turning point to the story and so on. I mean, it’s probably an entirely different thing when you know how much work the actual filming will be since I have absolutely zero experience about that XD but what I mean is, if you want to recover your creativity, just try and maybe go back to your roots? Imagine what it felt like at the very beginning, remember all the awesome ideas you had and keep in mind that now you actually have the know-how to do them.
I’m not sure what more I could tell you about the topic and to be honest I don't even know if any of this was any help to you, but let’s just say do whatever you want to do, don’t let other’s opinions stop you and remember that we’re always here to give you support or feedback on your works and lots and lots of virtual hugs =3 :huggle:
....did you actually read all this? Cause if yes, you’re crazy. Have a cookie.
lilotea-chan Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist

I’m-- this-- just-justbtjui.werzhq3wzhjoihÄÜwß0!!!!!
justmenobodyelse12 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013
Lala ^_^ I love anything you make, most people love it too. I showed my friend some of your work and she was like "*w* wow..." It was awesome. Lala your so pretty and I love how silly and crazy you are, just be yourself, that's the best thing right? Everyone has that so don't feel alone Lala, it makes me sad ;-;
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DarkAngelOfFantasy Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I can understand you so much, lala! The motivation-part sounded to me as if you were speaking about my life. Some years ago I literally exploded with ideas and creativity, and regardless of what the others thought, I simply wrote/drew/painted the things that came to my mind. Nowadays everyone expects me to be "adult" and puts so much pressure on my life without noticing that they crush the last of my artistic feelings alongside it. I know that with time, you think that's not even worth the effort of creating something, because you wouldn't be satisfied with it one way or another. But let me say this: Your art is awesome, your cosplays and videos are awesome, and so are you! Just give it a try and share these things with us which you think so badly of. You'll see that the reaction will show you that it was worth the effort :heart:
xXAna-ChristXx Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
jdbsakjdb You're so adorable, Lala. x3 *pets your faisu* uwu 

Addressing the topic of the phonies, I believe that they're possibly trying to smear your guys' reputation because of the people who enjoy your creations. Jealousy can make people do some really weird stuff, including impersonation. Although the idea seems really creepy in my mind...And dumb. 

And the topic of you going through this feeling of not liking the ideas you come up with, everyone who creates stuff tends to go through it, especially when in your position near graduation. I feel it's a sort of uneasiness and maybe a little bit of shock that you're so close to exiting school and beginning the part where you search for the job in your field of study. Plus, artists/creators go through points in their work where they just feel a lack of confidence. It's a horrible place to fall into. Even I, who can't even make extravagant things and just draws whatever I can and gain nothing from it, go through points where I draw or write something and then I just chuck it because it's just so bad in my mind. It's a normal thing for people, even though it's really hard to go through. But in order to see if something really IS bad or good, we need to lay it out for people to review and see. I'm not good at helping but I do hope you get through this little funk, and just know you do have friends for you. :heart: 
Yuki-kun-Wolf Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013
You are so adorable and so talented! I love all of your videos <3

I've gotten a bit out of my career choice at times as well, due to everything I've learned in the industry. I feel like all my muse goes to classwork and there's nothing left over for personal work. But don't worry, it doesn't stick around for long. This summer I've been consumed with thousands of ideas to the point of feeling overwhelmed lol. You just have to remember why you want to do this, get your drive and passion back. Don't be afraid to be unique. Your knowledge will help you sort out the bad ideas from the good, but your instinct and intuition will do the rest. Don't let the industry deter you, either. No amount of knowledge will guarantee your success; it takes talent and a bit of luck to make it anywhere. And honey, you're super talented ;)
MozyTheHealer Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013
Aw, Lala. It's sad that you feel you've lost your creativity. Speaking as an actor/writer/cosplayer/musician with some definite anxiety about how my work will be viewed, there are definitely times that I have an idea for how to play a character and then decide it's worthless. The way I get through it is just going for it, honestly. I know that's sort of lame advice, but if you go for it, chances are people will like it. If you have trouble with scripts you can always have a small group of people you trust to be your alpha readers. I'm sure you've heard that before, but it does help with writing, and it can give confidence when people help you make it better. But definitely, just go for it and stop over-thinking people's reactions before you've even shown the product to anyone.

Sorry if that's not very helpful. I don't have much experience with losing my muse, but I have experience in competitive music stuff and it is easy to get lost in the technicalities of what you have to do and losing the emotion and feeling of the piece you're playing, so I know a little how that feels.
MozyTheHealer Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013
And you're awesome, by the way, so who cares what stupid trolls think? EMBRACE THE AWESOME! :{D
shibaumino Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Everyone goes through that sort of thinking. Just remember all of your fans support you and love everything you do Lala-chan~ 
totodile-fan Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
XD I watched the video. Nice upotato XD 
Moku-chan018 Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

I <3 all of your work!! it's A.M.A.Z.I.N.G!!!! I really love your cosplays!!! Simply amazing!!! Your drawings and paintings are super cool!!! you are a cosplaying role model to me!!KEEP LIVING YOUR DREAM!!!!


Moku-chan018 <3

SerenityLunae Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Student General Artist
Aw Lala :( It makes me sad to hear that you feel as though you think people may not like what you post. But always remember that you have soooo many people that love you and what you do!! There will always be haters out there to troll and make other people upset about their work, but the trolls always get bashed in the end and get what's coming to them. I have thoughts too about posting things that I think other people may not like, but I just bite the bullet and say, if they don't like it, that's fine. Because I know that there are a majority of people out there who do and that's enough for me. The things you post are just flawless in every way, from cosplay, to videos, to art, it's so unique and beautiful. You've inspired many people and we love you for it; That's got to count for something, right? :D

I'm sorry I'm rambling xD Idk if I helped in any way (I probably didn't, I apologise XD) But I really hope you get your positivity back :) <3

BrokenLovelyBones Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Student Photographer
I gotta mail all you guys something now! XD 
HidansReaper Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my gosh Lala. That drawing was so superb in that video! Also, I can't wait for A-kon even though its ages away x'D
LukaMeguirine Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
XDDDD I shall forever use upotato now because of you ewe one of the many refs to you  I make a day XD
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